26 May 2005..... Undoubtedly one of the darkest and most humiliating days of my life, and to be honest, i never felt more worse or pissed off today.............

Today i was supposed to go work @ 10.30am... but i was late 5min, and before gg to the office, i rushed to Mac just to buy breakfast... saw a colleague who was buying breakfast for the rest.. so i waited for him and went to the office together with him....

When we reached the office, all the other colleagues and the Asst Mgr were sitting there as usual for the daily briefing.. but the next thing i knew, the Asst Mgr was angry that i bought breakfast when i was already late.. and suddenly..

He said i could go....... simple as that....... U CAN GO, JUST GO

I was stunned and for a while my mind was blank, cos no matter what, i came in with the other colleague, so why reprimand me only ? (maybe cos the other guy worked for more than a 1yr, and his last day was next week.. whereas i was there only for a month ?)

Anyway, that's not the main issue... the thing is, surely not infront of all the other colleagues rite ? Yes, i was late, and i shldnt buy breakfast since i was late... but what the fuck, surely that bastard would have a higher EQ to settle things amicably rite ??

BTW, this was the same man whom i REPEATEDLY asked abt when my pay would come (FYI, till now, i have not gotten a single cent from this place..).. and he would either say:

1. He would check and get back to me (which he NEVER did) or
2. Say that my pay would be in by the end of the week (which NEVER did)


If to him, someone who makes a mistake after ONE reminder would be eligible for the sack, then shouldnt he give up his seat too ??

Note : If i make a mistake, i would admit it openly and apologise, which in this case IS my fault.. but what realli pisses me off is i was asked to leave by someone who contradicts himself and also the manner that i was asked to leave...... and to think that later my supervisor would actually call me and ask me to go back tomorrow........

Sometimes, i realli believe that a man should have some temper.. and i realli regret not arguing with him on the spot, but just endure, endure, endure.......... Throughout these years, i have learnt or at least tried to think from the other party's perspective........ but sadly, it seems that alot of other people are thinking for themselves instead....... at least he dint...


Damn, i have gone through so much so much shit and problems, and it was also during one of the worst times of my life, did i decide to write a blog........ but does anyone know ?
Does anyone know that all this stress is piling on me, that sometimes i realli find it hard to breathe ? That all this stress is making it difficult for me to even lead just a simple life and to love and be loved ? Nope.. no one knows.. not even her... except maybe just a few closer friends.....