Saturday, April 08, 2006

Everyday, every hour and every other quiet moment.. i had something in mind that i wanted to blog about.. but its either i couldnt think of the right words to express my thoughts, or i simply.... couldnt type it out... guess sometimes it does take some courage to really blog abt wat i realli feel and wat i realli wanna let out...

As i mentioned b4 in my previous posts... i was on cloud nine (or gratified ?) when i knew tat i still stood a chance with her (or so i tot ?) But ever since the "ECP" incident, everything suddenly seemed to come to a standstill again..... she dint reply to my sms as often or she doesn't seem to bother @ all.... and suddenly... this became the norm and here i am.. back to square one..

Sometimes i really wonder if she just can't be bothered.. or is it because i just ain't worth a thought in her mind.... nonetheless, watever conclusion i thought of were simply.. negative ones.... To be honest, i do believe that i have done my part.. and since she doesn't reciprocate or don't bother @ all... i might as well give up again... this time for good... because if she can be so indifferent and insensitive towards me, it goes to show that maybe.. we just ain't meant to be......

But in all truth... she is truly a nice and special gal and is someone whom i will always treasure as a friend and someone who deserves a good man who will love and care for her always.....


But i do know in my heart... that i will never be that man....


On a lighter note... recently i finished watching a jap drama called "Train Man" aka "Densha Otoko" which, although is based on a true story, is a show which i find it too good to be true... nonetheless, i really find the story very touching.. well at least it gives the impression that miracles do happen... and honestly speaking... this show kinda gives me new found courage again......which is the courage to start anew, and the belief that there are gals who are really like "Hermes" (Ito Misaki's character in Train Man)


Lastly, i am really proud to say that i have finally met her again ... the person whom i have been hoping to see again after more than 14 years... the gal whom i first liked.. and the gal whom i have always thought about... yes.. i have finally met up with her!! YES YES YES!!!!

Although it was the 2nd meeting i had with her... i would always remember 31st March 2006 as one of the best days of my life... simply because what i felt that day was something i had seriously not felt for the longest time i can remember (of cos i had a similar feeling when i met her for the 1st time, but this time, the feeling was much more intense and .. wat can i say... simply unbelieveable.. )

Anyway, i am so glad to know that she is doing well and that she is safe and healthy.... now i just hope that she will achieve all her goals... and that one day, will also find the man of her life.........



P.S : Densha Otoko is not only a good J-drama, it also has a few really nice soundtracks..... so if anyone likes nice smoothing music.. msn me ok!



Song of the Day: "Benoist" by Face 2 Fake

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