Last nite was @ Kin San's place for a bbq... haha, it was the 1st time we guys actualli organised a bbq together!! hmm..... it was v fun, and of coz, other den doing a little of cooking, a little of arranging tables.. most of the time, i was doing an excellent job of FOOD-TASTER!! haha... hey, itz a tough job ok! i had to make sure the food tastes good... hmm.. i must have done a gd job.. coz no one complained abt the food!! :P haha...
anyway, it was a great nite out... although it was the same usual guys.. plus a few of KS's church friends...

but overall, we had a great time..... and maybe i was drunk after drinking too much orange syrup, cos i actualli spilled so much secrets !! esp abt Daniel and oso the one and only Kin San...... hmm... anyway, Chong Kun, i must realli praise the Aga-Aga that u made... they are simply heaven!!!

now that KS can open a Bak Kut Tea store.. and i can open a sugar-cane store next to him.. u can actualli open a dessert store right next to ours!! haha..... we will earn BIG MONEY man!!!!!!!!!

But i realli believed the nite could have been more enjoyable.... if a few other people made it .... esp her............


Song of the Day : "Nothing Compares to U" by Sinead 'O' Connor

just received an email from my friend...... itz the infamous clip of the beheading of the South Korean..... i saw the whole clip... from the pleading of the innocent man.. to the declaration of the fuckers.. to the beheading..... all this in 3 long long mins..
the korean kept saying that he wanna live.. and yet it fell on deaf ears.....

nobody will ever imagine wat went through in his mind... and may those fuckers be caught, so that his soul will rest in peace...

God bless his family......... i cannot imagine wat they are gg through now oso.........



For the brave-hearted, if u realli wanna take a look @ the clip, here is the link..

http://www.freakhole.com/downloads/koreanbeheaded.wmv
(WARNING!! v blurr, but still extremely disturbing..)


when will all these end ? i ask...........


Quote of the Day: We all have to die someday... but no one.. not even us, have the right to decide when dat day comes...

the time now is 5.47pm exactly... most of my colleagues have left.. damn.. now it is so quiet.. and i still got 3 hours +++ more to go.... damn... how i wish someone can disturb me now.. haha.. esp her... haiz... so bloody tired....

The time is now 7.12pm.. now on the 27th floor.. i am the ONLY person in this whole level..... my other colleague moved to the 32th floor, as she is wrkin till midnite... damn.... but at least i can do my own things... hmmmmm

Half an hour more to go..... gotta endure.... lucky not much calls .... phew.....

This is the 2nd post that i am putting.. rite from my workplace... haha.. and i am doing it secretly.. somemore my manager is sitting rite behind me!! haha.... i must be mad...
Damn.... today i will be doing OT till 9pm... aahh... well, since no one can do it, and i can .. why not.. hmm.... but most likely no OT to claim.. only time-off..... haiz.... wat the heck....

Anyway i really hate it when callers not only asked for my name.. they oso insists to know my surname.. i mean.. HELLO!, i am wrkin for the hotline.. how many Dereks would there be huh ?? some people, especially chinese.. can be such idiotic and brainless people... and they always speak as though they are the bosses.. and insists on this, insists on that..and the things that they complain abt.. OMG, it can be so bloody ridiculous.... wah lau eh! i dun mind telling them my surname if they asked.. but itz the way they asked.. so bloody rude and cocky.... think they are all a bunch of bloody shitheads...
hmm... i have a long day ahead.. think i will continue to blog as the day passes... just hope i dun get caught!!!

Just came back from watching "The day after tomolo".. and boy, the special effects are incredible!! wat makes it so outstanding is dat it seemed so real... although it is oso quite exaggerated... but well... a little of exaggerration is oso v good... anyway, my friend and i went to PS to watch the show..... and after dat we ate @ this small cafe cum restaurant called "Secret Recipes" .. and i strongly recommend Mexican Chicken!! it is damn gd and the meat is so tender..... wow.. best chicken i have tasted so far..... :)
hmm..... anyway, overall it was v gd.....

Important note of the day : when u are waiting for a train in australia.. dun wait for the door to open for u! cos if u keep waiting.. the train will just leave without u!!! hmm... guess the technology in Aust is still not so gd..... SMRT bagus!!!!!! haha... oops... sorry, jas!!! :P


Song of the Day : " Do you have to let it linger" by Cranberries.....

This is the very first post that i am putting.... rite from the computer of my work place... i am wrking till 8am tomolo... and damn, i am already feeling very sleepy... and itz oni 9.20pm ?!?!?! aaaaahhhhhh....... damn, if anyone is reading this, can at least sms me some interesting things to keep me awake ??? :P

sometimes, wont it be gd to have a confidante.. a soulmate.. or to put it simply.. a best friend ? i have a group of realli gd friends... but whenever i have problems or am under alot of stress... i dun tell them...... dunnoe why.. but i guess i rather keep it to myself..... i mean.. we are realli v close.. but then, so far we have oni gone thru the gd times together... and not the bad ones together...we havnt shared our problems together yet.....and everyone always put on a smile whenever we meet.. so no one knows if any one of us actualli had a problem or anything..... no one toks abt it, except maybe Kin Sun and Daniel......

i had some problems... and becoz of this, i got to know who my real friends are... the ones that i was close to... avoided me when i asked them for help... and the ones who helped me... were actualli the ones whom i hardly tok to..... ironic, isnt it ?
i was stunned and there was anger, bitterness and alot of sadness in me..... but in the end, wat to do..... itz my own problem and i had to solve it myself......

I realli wanna thank Aizhen and Alex (yes, raw king!! itz u!!) cos in times of need, u guys realli gave me a helping hand...... also not forgetting friends like Irene, Chris etc.. for listening to my problems when i needed someone to tok to.... really appreciate them......

Gosh.. isn't it sad... when i have lived for 24 years in this world.. and i have not yet found someone who truly understands me..... and that whenever i feel like toking to someone.. i would think of that person (KS and Dan, we do share alot of problems together, but again, i guess i am not yet ready to tell u guys the things that i realli went through) ..... haiz.. forget it.. i am tired ... gotta work later........

super tired now.... but cant sleep...... sian man..... tomorrow is my first nite shift @ work... from 8pm till 8am the next day...... i enjoyed doing nite shift during my previous job @ starhub... becos i can do watever i want.. i have company.. and there are minimum calls...... but this time... i am by myself.. although i will be on the same floor with other depts.. but again..... haiz..... looks like i must bring alot of stuff to read and entertain myself over there... hope there wont be any nuisance calls..
So, guys...... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not call LTA after midnite!! that's the time when oni 1 person is manning it... and that will be me!!! so please please dun call after 12...... :P

Oh man...... anyway, cant wait for this sunday to come... haha, datz the time when my friends and i are actualli organising a bbq.. not many pple will come. but nonetheless.. dun think it will be boring oso. esp when ks and niu niu are there...... hope that she will come oso... "crossing fingers"

Another killing, another beheading..... when will all these barbarians stop... i have no idea...... realli no idea wat goes on in these peoples' heads..... if there is ever one person i can interview.. i would interview that Osama Bin Laden... find out why and what exactly does he wants..... maybe he shld have a taste of his own medicine... before he and his other bastards will stop......
And abt the man who was killed @ Bt Merah over the soccer betting incident... i realli cant believe that men of their age can do such things... quarrel over such small issues.. and in the end, one stupid thing turn to that murderer into a fugitive....

Lastly, my deepest condolences go out to the family of MR Paul Johnson..... may the time of terrorism soon come to an end....... and like wat the previous Miss Universe always say.... " I Hope for World Peace".....

hope it realli comes true.........

i just feel i have to let everyone hear abt this incident that happened while on my way home on the mrt.....
I was on the crowded mrt as usual.. and doing the extraordinary feat of sleeping while standing.. when suddenly i was awaken from my sleep by someone at the other end of the cabin..who was scolding at the top of her voice.. for a moment i tot this China woman was scolding someone on her mobile.. until i realised she was actualli scolding at a young lady for knocking into her.. she kept scolding her and she went on and on.. while everyone else was just looking on.. until someone came to the helpless lady's rescue by trying to reason with the mad woman.. and guess wat... he is a China man... whom is a complete stranger to both persons.. in the end the mad woman kept quiet and later the lady just got off the train.. weeping away...
Suddenly it got me thinking... i used to discriminate Mainland Chinese and indians.. and all the more so, when i saw how uncivilised the mad woman was.. but when i saw how in front of so many other Singaporeans, this China man just stood up for the lady.. i was stunned, yet impressed and i admired the man for it....
That's the problem with Singaporeans.. they just loved to mind their own businesses.. and see a "free" show.. and i bet no one would help even if the mad woman starts to get violent...
There was once i was inside Boat Quay's coffee bean.. and i saw with my own eyes how a group of skinny ah bengs beat up a poor fellow infront of the crowd outside coffee bean.. and no one helped.. until a Foreigner came to shield the fellow from the rest.. i mean cmon, surely someone could have shouted " police come liao" or something to scare off the ah bengs.. but everyone else just sat on their chairs ..... as though nothing happened.....
I was pissed off... yet again.. i guess this happens in every country.. haiz

Just a point to add : I know pple will ask why i dint offer any help instead, since i can say these things... but in the first case, i was in the crowded mrt, and the incident happened from the other end of the cabin.. i dunnoe who is rite or wrong... how to help ?? i oni knew more details after the China Man helped to reason with the woman..
in the 2nd case.. i was INSIDE coffee bean.. and the fighting happened OUTSIDE... i oni knew more, after i heard shouting and the foreigner had came to help the poor kid....


Singaporeans maybe good at many things..... but they will NEVER be good at standing up for one another... even if it is within their means......

Today i am tired, happy and yet worried... tired becoz of all the work and lack of sleep.... happy cos one of my friends has found her love.... yet i am worried if the guy is the right man for her..... it is true that men will never fully understand women.. but again, women will also never fully understand men..... reason is simple.. cos we are created differently.. like the opposite sides of a magnet.....
i care for her as a friend... and i can only advise her and do wat i can as a friend.. in the end, the decision is hers.. all i hope.. is that the guy realli likes her.. that she can fend for herself and think logically and rationally.. and not leave any scars in her heart.....

nonetheless... i wish her all the best.. and may she remain cheerful, happy as always.. and i am sure that starting from this moment, she will be more mature and strong...

I never believe in love at first sight.. maybe physical attraction at first... but in the end.. true love is only cultivated through time and memories spent together .. nothing else..

a neo print of the 10yrs series gang.. taken in JB..... friends forever!!!!!
 

i just feel i had to add another pic of my friends!!!!!!! i know they will be grateful to me for making them so famous!!! KS, ur dream will be fulfilled soon!!!!!!!!!! 

okok.... itz time i make fun of myself oso.. this pic was taken from a skit i played in a church camp last year.. and we were to play "adam" and "eve"... oh my god..... my reputation has gone down the drain........ but wat the heck!! :) 

another one... very lovely dovey rite ??? kekeke 

haha.... some photos of 2 of my very best friends.... er.. they are not gay .. hehe, although the way the photos are taken prove other wise!!!!! oops! 

Where my friends and i always hang out .. whenever our stomach calls for food and supper... this is oso where the most juicest gossips take place!! 

Last nite was watching Euro '04 till 2am..... and damn, i had a very bad sore throat all of a sudden...... haha, in the end, i "had no choice" but to take mc!! :p
anyway, tonite had to go for class again and stay back to continue my HRM project.. super sian.. but wat to do...... haiz..... no mood to realli continue typing now oso......


Song of the Day : "Linger" by Cranberries

Damn tired today.. just woke up @ 4pm ++..... last friday after work, i had to go for my night class.. and stayed at Toa Payoh for my project till 11.30pm.. and reached home at 12.30am .... some more i live in Boon lay.. damn.. and the next day (Sat) i was working from 8am to 12pm... den went to eat and tok to my colleague.. and joined my ex-starhub colleagues for KTV from 2pm till 6pm... (psst, i have found the 1 song that belongs to me liao!! hehe.. :P .....) reached home at around 8pm.. den came out for a drinks and tok cock session with my buddies at Boat Quay and also watched the Euro '04 live there..... and when i reached home at 2.30am, i still stayed up to watch the second live telecast match... finally closed my eyes @ 5am.. and the next time i know, it was already 4pm..... and tonite i am gonna stay up till 2.45am to watch "France vs England" ... and god, i am workin at 8.30am tomorrow......

man, i am gonna die realli young.. all because of lack of sleep!!!

After posting the previous one abt my former sch friends.. i was tokin to one of my good friends, Kin Sun.. he told me some things which i totally agree.....

He said, " we have left behind a past which can never be retrieved and will only exist in our memories. ".....

"we had no agenda, no infection by worldly things. Just really Pure Innocence."

Those good 'ol days are now gone.. i know we should not dwell on it, and just look forward to the future.. but somehow, i just feel dat, once in a while, we shld all look back at whatever that has happened.. be it good or bad.. just be glad that we have gone through all these things.. if not.. there wouldnt even be anything that we can look forward to anymore.......

If u still have the mobile no. of people that u have hardly tok to . or even seen or communicate... be glad that u still have their numbers.. send them a msg tonight.. to let them know that u still appreciate them, that u still care.. and that they will always remain ur true friends........

But remember not only our friends, but oso our parents ... tell ur parents that u realli love them and appreciate them oso. cos one thing is for sure... when u say those things .. they will know that u really mean that.. and u know that they can feel that...and the feeling is just so magical............

Song of the Day II : "This used to be our Playground" by Madonna (Courtesy of Kin Sun)

Today i was looking at my friendster list.. and browsing through my friends' list.. when i started to think of my sec sch.. Jin Tai Sec... man, those were the days.. when we were most carefree.. tok cock, tok abt ah lians and steads, play soccer, play hide & seek, play "cha teh", and of coz my all-time fav "sport" : BLOCK CATCHING!!! i will never forget those most memorable moments.. knew all my closest friends there.. although it is also a regret that i lose contact with so many other friends too... even those that was closest at that time.. pple like zhiyong, zhiguang, yan xing, "botak", chen yuan, wenzheng..the list goes on... man, we were the closest of all friends during the last 2 years of sec sch... but after poly and NS, one by one, slowly lose contact.. practically forever...
anyway, i oso tot abt my Pri Sch, Henry Park... studied there btw 1987-1992.. it was an excellent school producing excellent students.... until they produced me.. :P i mean, practically all the parents have heard of this school located @ Ghim Moh, right next to the Raffles Girl's Pri Sch at that time.. i miss the teachers, like Mrs Siresena, my pri sch mates like zhenxing ( my closest buddy @ that time..) blah blah blah.. (actualli forgot all the names of the rest liao!! ).. but i will never forget one girl who will always have a special place in my heart..... Huang Wanyi.. the 1st girl i ever liked in my life.. and most probably the only person that i will never ever see again, yet her image remains deeply imprinted in my mind..... i must be the luckiest man in this world.. for i still have her photo.. looking most pretty in spectacles and in our brown school uniform.....


those were the days.....




Song of the Day : " I Can't Smile Without You" by Barry Manilow... this song brings out all the memories that i tot i have forgotten......

Quote of the Day : if there is ever a Time Machine invented.. i will gladly put in all my money.. just to experience those sec sch days one more time.....

Yesterday was realli funny..... one of my friends, called Irene, sms me, asking me to tune in to Channel U, as her friend was on TV, competing in some idol competition.. and she wanted to intro to me.. anyway, the moment i switched to dat channel, i saw some contestants.. and den i saw one very familiar girl.. she was actualli the girl that one of my friends got to know at the M1 shop at Taka.. of coz, i immediately told my friend... and later i sms Irene back, saying that i dunnoe which gal she was talking abt, but i did see the gal dat my friend liked.. i indicated that she had short hair, and was abt 1.55m tall...... guess wat ? Irene sms me back, saying that was the same gal she wanted me to see!! omg, wat a coincidence..... anyway, now that irene knows that gal, i can actualli get her to help my friend to know her better.. and get her to come to my friend's bbq on the 27th! hmm... things are looking good for him..... hope everything will turn out fine... :)

haiz, super sian man..... tml still gotta work... wrking the 8am shift some more... damn.......

2 June 2004.. Vesak Day... i will never forget this historical day.. becos this IS the day that i kept a CLEAN SHEET in an unforgettable match today at Ngee Ann poly soccer field.. for the 1st time!!!!! :p today was also the day that i wore my new soccer gloves in more than half a year for the 1st time.. yes, i bought them last year.. but oni wore them for today's match... (yes, i am the team's goalkeeper.. the one in the least coveted position.. :P)
But wat makes this match more significant was that we have not played field soccer for almost a year.. and my team played realli seriously and i think today was the best match we ever played so far.. and we won 6-0 ! The defence was good.. midfield was good.. attack was good... and that was why i dint have much to do anyway... phew
And i wont forget the most funny incident that happened.. was that my friend was shielding the ball from an opponent.. and his hand actualli moved from pushing away his chest.. all the way to rubbing his "soft" groin!! haha...... eeeeeeee!!!! so funny, esp when he described it to us..
But we wont be able to do it without the new "signings" we had today.. we were good today.. but they made us look good.. man, must try to pyscho them to sign permanently for us... hmmm......
Lastly, i dedicate this win and clean sheet to that special someone.. cos i told my buddies that i MUST get this clean sheet for her! and lucky my friends made it easy for me...... :)


Quote of the day : I can dive, i can save.. i can clear and i can hold.. but please.. NO BACKPASSES!!!!

Happened to read one of my good friend's blog just now.. and only den did i know to the full extent of how much he loves his ex-gf..... he realli loves her alot.. but unfortunately he is oso despairing becoz of the break-up.. i realli hope that he can pick up his life again.. and be the same person that i always knew.....
That woman is one lucky girl... to have a man who realli loves her WHOLE-HEARTEDLY..
and now this makes me think of that special someone.....


Quote of the day : Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours...

My Friend's Blog : http://dammboring.blogspot.com/